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someone with bulky legs managed to slim down their legs while also working out? please share your secrets sigh
19 // 5'6 // asexual ! // stoner // college sophomore SW: 155 CW: 132 GW1: 135 β GW2: 130 GW3: 125 UGW: 120
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Hey everyone
I haven’t been active for a few days and I’d like to tell you why
I was smoking with some friends and we decided to watch a movie. I was laying on my side and I tried resting my elbow on my hip.
I couldnt do it. It literally felt like my hip bone and elbow were puncturing each other. I moved my arm so it was on my rib area. I couldn’t do this either. I could feel the outline of each rib with just the side of my arm. I know I was high, but I truly felt so uncomfortable and scared; this feeling hasn’t gone away since then. Due to genetics, I store the majority of my fat in my lower body. Before I developed unhealthy eating habits, I already had a smaller upper body. When I lost weight, I lost some fat from my legs. However, the majority of my weight loss has occurred in my upper body and it has been so obviously apparent. My chest bones are fucking popping out of my chest. They almost feel as distinct as my rib bones.
I would imagine this being so exciting, but it’s not. It’s extremely scary. I can’t be this skinny. I’m realizing I can’t go out to parties with a bikini top or go on beach vacations because my upper body makes me look like I’m coming straight out of a fuckin concentration camp. I’m realizing how bad this has gotten, and I need some time to try and see if I can work to get better.
As some of you know, I’ve been eating a higher cal intake (~1000cal a day) for a while now with exercise. This has made me lose fat very quickly and now I honestly look ghastly. However, I believe, for me, it was a step in the right direction (compared to my previous eating 400-700cal). I think I’m ready to take the next step to eating an even higher cal intake. I am going to be taking baby steps, but as of right now, I’m ready to grow some muscle back and get nice and strong through the help of calories and exercise!
I will be off tumblr for a while for obvious reasons. I may make a recovery account, but for right now I need some time by myself. I greatly appreciate all my friends on here so so so much. I’d like to send love to @lost-wintergirl @anon-flower @blvrryeyed for being a friend I could talk to when I needed it.
@lost-wintergirl: Your positivity is so so helpful. I know there are so many people on here who benefit from your awareness and healthy encouragement. I have absolutely loved talking/venting to you. You are so strong and a beautiful human love you girl 💗
@anon-flower: OMG you are an absolute sweetheart! I honestly felt like I didn’t deserve to be able to benefit from such a kind human. Your comments and messages brightened my day so much thank you so much love you honey!
@blvrryeyed My dude. Thank you for being someone I could vent to and relate to who isn’t connected to my “real life”. Talking to you has been so freeing and even though my slow ass responses (lol) might not make it seem like it, but I appreciate you so much thank you love!
You are all such kind people who deserve the absolute best. I love you all so much ❤️ I would also like to thank @hightinybean and @foxylosu for being positive influences on me, through comic relief and through the encouragement of healthy eating habits. Thank you so much lovelies!
Before I leave, I want to make something clear: I am in no way “cured” of my eating disorder. Unfortunately, there’s a good chance I won’t recover. I’ll relapse. My body dysmorphia isn’t gone; it’s as strong as it’s always been. However, I’m trying to teach myself that I deserve more. Hopefully, I can be gentle with myself. Right now I need to be my own friend
someone with bulky legs managed to slim down their legs while also working out? please share your secrets sigh
lots of walking, long distance running on flat surfaces (no sprinting/intervals), consistency, and you gotta stretch
Sprint workouts will not bulk up your legs if you’re in a calorie deficit. It’s physically impossible. Literally no type of workout will bulk you up in a calorie deficit so do whatever tf you want
dont fucking smoke to lose weight i’m serious you have enough problems with your disorder on your own you don’t need another addiction
Me because why would someone like trash
is it just me or can everyone here agree that fasting alltogether is way easier than just restricting?
*saves overly triggering posts to my drafts bc i dont want u to suffer*
if you don’t currently have any weed, you’re so fucking brave, hang in there, i’ve been where you are and i promise it gets better, you’ll have weed again soon, i’m blessing you all with that energy
